Sunday, April 1, 2012

Addicted

All I feel like doing these days is playing Tetris battle on Facebook.
Gone are my plans of writing a new short story, typing the one I have kept pending for what seems like ages, making the blog posts I have been planning since exams, watching a cart-load of movies, reading all my new novels and participating in BAT.

But, Tetris has spoiled all my plans(not that I complain) and all I do all day long is jog in the morning, solve a practice paper for WBJEE, read a bit of the novel and play Tetris or brood.

Despite this monotone, I feel depressed. And depressed like hell. it's not even something I feel like sharing; its one of those blue times when you would rather sit alone and think your life sucks.

The upcoming competitive exams are scaring the shit out of me. I don't even remember class 11 physics; I think i will probably end up doing just math and chemistry in every exam. I wish I weren't giving so many exams. It just gets me scared and depressed even more.

I cant write and this scares me. Drowning my pain in Tetris, that's what I am doing these days.
I dont even feel like talking to people anymore. Cooped up all day long- thats what i am doing these days.

Wish this phase would end. But even if it does, wont it start into something similar?
I wonder, I wonder very much.

Sigh. what a depressing post!
hoping to get well soon(cuz I am definitely sick of myself and my thoughts at present)

Kirti

8 comments:

  1. Get Well Soon! :P :D
    I hate those games on facebook... I've been on FB since 3-4 years but never played a game on it (expect Crazy Cabbie :P) .. But I'm surely addicted to FB.. ! :P
    Ya, I too think Life really sucks.. I know nothing, whats happening all around.. but that is LIFE ! it really teaches us so many things.. ! :D so chillax... everything's gonna be alright! :D

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  2. Everyone is addicted to one thing or the another
    just don't forget to keep your priorities straight

    :)
    do keep sharing :)

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  3. hahahah Kirti! Little one..!! :D I was laughing badly when I read life sucks.. :D sometimes addiction is good..! don't worry about it..! just make sure you do what you are supposed to do when the day ends and everything is going to be fine! :)

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  4. Hope you get de addicted soon!! And pass your exams with flying colors.
    And write those short stories, please, I am addicted to them.

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  5. Kiri.. we all go through phases like that. The good part is you realise that this is eating up your time and this is not your goal. I have gone through these "driftting" times a hundred times before I actually did what made me happy. You will get out of this as long as you are ready to move on..

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  6. Oh so it is not just me...I can't write either. Stupid post-exams syndrome...KILL ME!!!

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  7. Ahhh!!! Your going through one of those horribly depressing and self loathing phase, aren't you???

    Just got out of mine :p Things will be okay, just hang in there

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  8. I can understand what exactly you are/were going through.
    I AM GOING THROUGH THE SAME!!! :P

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